Man…January seems to be going by real fast. But I can’t
complain! : )
2013 has left me with this feeling of making some huge
changes. I know, I know…people always do that when the new year starts, but
this time it’s for real!
It’s perfect timing, for me, because my mom is out of town
and that gives me more time to focus on myself and prioritize things. There's a reason why I want have to do this, because if I don't start somewhere things are just going to keep going downhill.
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For years I would go months without having my period, or the
days I did get it it was pretty heavy and the cramps were bad. Now I bet there are women out there who would say that that's normal, but it isn't. About 2-3 years
ago, I’ve been doing some research and I wanted to know what all these symptoms that I have meant. Everything I read…every symptom…I had it. I had
PCOS (polycystic ovary syndrome). To know that I’ve been dealing with this for
17 years, it just left me…..I just couldn’t believe it.
I go see my gyno and he
tells me the same thing....I have PCOS. The doctor, of course, has me on the pill for a
couple years, that doesn’t fix it, and then has me on some other stuff, that
doesn’t fix it…here comes October 2013 and I’m about to have my FIRST
outpatient surgery!
My husband and I have been talking about wanting kids for a couple
of years now and after we got married, we definitely want to start a family.
When I told my doctor that haven’t had a “regular” period and that I’ve been
bleeding for months, almost a year, that’s when he suggested that I have a D
& C/laparoscopy. Oh, boy! Was I nervous. I was freaking out because I’ve
never gotten general anesthesia, so every wild and crazy thought was crossing
my mind. I’m just glad it took a couple of
hours and I was able to go home after that. I DO NOT like hospitals, and that hospital bed is uncomfortable.
Two weeks later, I go see my doctor to get the stitches removed, and
after talking to him for a while the doctor said that we can definitely start
trying to have kids, but he was giving us 6 month. Now don’t forget, what he
temporarily fixed would come back, so he threw out there that if trying to
conceive naturally doesn’t work, he’ll refer us to a fertility specialist. Say what?!!! It’s
been difficult. I feel like I’m back in the same boat and I choose not to go
through the same procedure again. So I spent the last month and a half doing more research on
PCOS and how to treat it in a more natural way. I honestly don’t want to be
putting a bunch of crap in my body. I don’t want to slap a band-aid on
PCOS. What my body’s going through, it’s not fair. It’s embarrassing. I’m tired
of it!!!!!!!!!
So this year, I need to make some changes, especially for my
health. I know that God has a baby boy or girl for us, and I pray every day
that this will go away.
Angelica